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it bothers me that I have difficulty remembering names.

tonight it took me almost an hour to think of the name of someone I consider the great love of my life.

Often when I am speaking in front of people I cannot think of a cewrtain word. that word might be something like "umbrella". i can see it but I can't get the word.

I'm losing my mind.

I've become very forgetful.

and I'm extra crabby on this new medicine although i actually feel pretty good.

except my balance is all out of whack. so i keep walking into door frames. and I totally cracked my head on the roof of my car.

I've been sleeping better but tonight ( this mornimng ) I'm wide awake. it's 1:52 am.

it bothers me that I worry about money constantly. However, I do realize that even people with excessive amounts of money are probably also worring about it constantly. I'd like to not worry. I'd like to enjoy my greasy burger and onion rings at broiler bay with my work crew and not have to mentally take not of the state of my bank accounts.

it bothers me that i can't eat at night. like most people, I love food. I get ridiculous cravings at night and have to drink glass after glass of water to fill myself up. which keeps me running to the bathroom throughout the night.

it DOESN'T bother me that I have a sense of humour. I'm actually quite proud of myself that i haven't let my crazy thyroid thing DESTROY me like so many people I have met and read about.

the new drug i am on makes me a little dizzy but I feel pretty good. My three drug test counter parts are all having terrible migraines. i have had the migraines throughout this bullshit trip but not recently.

it bothers me that TanQ can fall asleep in mere moments and seems quite proud of it, especially when I am up at 1:59 am.





that is all.