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not a great deal to say lately.

not all that excited about the holidays this year but excited to get the fuck out of dodge for a week ( leave for mpls on the 17th back the 26th ). have not spent much more than 3 whole days away from work all year. pretty much ready to scream and/or stab someone in the eye.

otherwise, things are freakin' peachy.

Happy birthday to my closest friend in this Universe, Steve. he's Turning....well, I guess it's not polite to say such things, is it? Cheers, Sweetie. Thanks for everything.

this is totally cute.

Other than her club mixes, I was on the fence about mizz gaga, but This bitch's last couple of videos ( not to mention that fucked up VMA's performance ) are crazy and hilarious and excellent. It's like a shitstorm of art damaged high fashion crossed with a fellini film set in an alien inspired bathhouse. She makes the videos drag queens would make if they had that kind of money. plus, she does her own crazy little burning bed tribute at the end and there's a fucking hairless cat in the video. and you know how I love those hairless pussy.

I'm still more into her thump thump mixes but I actually like this song.
the fact that she does this stuff and it gets played along side the shit in the top 40 is mind blowing. even the former hater Dre has come around.....

I don't even know what to say about this.

Also known as AWESOME

...and thus I will be in the midwest dec 17th - 26th. Rah.

am I wrong? I thought not.

how strange. a horror film that pretty much lives up to the hype. Scared the shit out of me. repeatedly. I must add that the main characters are not very likeable and I spent most of the movie waiting for the stupid bitch girlfriend to die but that did not detract from being scared in the least. Scary. Very well done.

I have been having a ridiculous amount of computer problems. I have killed a keyboard and 2 wireless mice in the last few weeks.

in other news... last week marked 11 years since I moved to Seattle and 3 months since ....well, I guess that was a little harsh.

Funny the shit life throws at you, isn't it?

she likes to hang out in my bathtub. Freak.

of course the Kylie show was amazing. so much better than I expected. Jeni & I got upgraded to the awesome seats in the first row of the balcony. even the songs I'm not in love with kicked my ass. Yes, This is how you put on a show and this is the easily best show I have ever seen.






"boombox/can't get you out of my head" nice quality from our show.

...and put this song on it. never heard of this guy but It's a great song.
and yes...it kinda wreaked me.



Come on, come on
You have got to move on
This is not the you I know
This isn't real
It's just all you can feel
And that's the way that feelings go
And whether or not it's right or wrong you'll do what you will do

[Chorus]
When the cloud in the sky starts to pour
And your life is just a storm you're braving
Don't tell yourself you can't lean on someone else
Cause we all need saving sometimes

Say what you will but the time that we fill
While we're on the earth
Should not be alone
We were meant to be known
You make me what i'm worth
But I can't keep you from yourself you'll do what you will do

[Chorus]

I don't know why it has to be this way and
I don't know the cure
But please believe someone has felt this before

[Chorus]

1 who wouldn't want this awesome sean connery painting?
2 as close as we got to being tourists
3 its a pirate ship or some nonsense
4 as close as we got to the bridge
5 me and heidi in the backseat. as usual
6 we had a blast in the castro. Loved it.
7 painting inside Harvey Milk's old shop
8 escape from new york pizza! does Snake Pliskin work there?
9 AMAZING RECORD STORE!!! WOW! Amoeba Music.
10 Jeni & Heidi waiting for the car. Our Hotel was awesome.

please make a note of this.

I'm off to San Fran on tuesday with Jeni, Michael and Heidi for a micro vacation built around the Opening show of Kylie's first US Tour. I can't even wait - just to get on a plane and get the fuck away from here - it's been far too long.
I'm sure there will be pictures and maybe some of Jeni's awkward flip videos.

Enjoy your week.

Friday : ummmm....dug up stuff for rummage sale - took to UM's house. Prepped for Rummage sale.

Saturday : Rummage sale 9-2. Made more money than i expected, so that was nice. Took Ollie to GIJoe then sat at tabel 219 with Bree and Ollie and Tommy and watched some interesting meltdowns. home and in bed by 11 pm.

Sunday : Laundry and Lunch with Steve at Torrero's. Target, Petco ( so heartbreaking! I want to adopt every kitty there. ) and then more fried goodness and beer at a place called "the dog & pony show". Now cleaning my apartment so my cat sitter won't judge me too harshly this week when i am in San Fran.

an Itunes only bonus track to her new greatest hits - I think this one is way better than the 2 new tracks that made the album. Sure, the lyrics are a little trite but the music is bumpin'! we listened to this on my friend's crazy stereo in his Porsche the other night. wow - it made me hate my car stereo.

I played this song to death around the time I met Jeff and have been listening to it a lot lately. It's one of Abba' most underrated songs and probably my 2nd favorite.

You looked so unhappy last night
I vaguely know what's going on
and I hate that you have to deal with this stuff
because I do care and I worry
but our walls have gone up
and we are seeing each other from a distance
and I kind of feel like a stranger to you now
3 months ago I intended to spend the rest of my life with you
a sad and strange turn of events
but something that happens every day around the world
I do hope that someday
you will let me back in
to your world

martini's at tini bigs
the canlis disaster
one of the best conversations I can remember
we talked about right said fred and shakespear's sister
and disagreed on the spelling
best new order song and morrissey
Siouxsie vs robert smith
andy bell and neil tennant
funny that you didn't want to drive
but in a desperate effort to save the evening
you drove to get peach sangria ingrediants
hilarious to be on the phone and see your giant bags of stuff
emerge from your giant cheap car. Lair
I can't thank you for the peach sangria hangover
but I hated seeing you leave

"all I am is a diversion and expect nothing less"
you know everything and vice versa
but at least my Ex didn't call you a "meat curtain"
I use that term a lot, sadly
your dog loves me
and TanQ loves you
our timing sucks and we both know that
our luggage doesn't even match
but I'm happy for what you are calling a "diversion"
because i think i have laughed more in the last 3 days than i have
in the last 2 months
and for that I want to thank you
and Not in a Dido way
and I don't want to disregard anything that has happened before
for either of us
because it is still staggeringly important
however
I think we were both in the right place
at the right time
and within 30 seconds you referenced Portishead
which garnished my absolute attention
like you can't even believe
so lets kill off any expectations
which is so hard for me, I must say
and for once
see what happens
and not loose sleep over anything
because that's what I do


cheers, mate

my favorite human being on Earth, Cassandra petersen aka Elvira, Mistress of the Drak turns 58 today. I hope it's marvelous. I will watch an old episode of "Movie Macabre" tonight to celebrate.

The Sundays "Wild Horses"


Mazzy Star "Fade Into You"


Pink "I Don't Believe You"


we saw Pink the other night at Key Arena. Wow. a big awesome spectacle. easily one of the best shows I have ever seen. So she starts the song above and of course I'm sitting next to Jeff...and well...it totally wreaked me. I had to listen from the hallway with people wondering what my problem was. it's a beautiful song. give it a listen.

it hasn't quite been 2 months
I miss being able to sleep
I miss Not spending all night thinking
stressing and worrying.
replaying the scenes
asking the questions
all those stupid "what if's"
I hate feeling this lost.
like something has been taken from me.
everyday is supposed to be easier
and now most of them are
there are weeks that fly by without any drama
and sure, everyday it hurts a little less
until the next thing that happens
will there always be something that hurts
- even though it's not on purpose
- or even directed at me ?
you could call and warn me
I'm a pretty fair guy
don't drop bombs in places you know I will see them
I find that totally disrespectful
I wonder what I cared about before
last November
I mean - yes - I know
but it seems so ...unimportant
I don't see how those things kept me
bob bob bobbin' along
because they don't matter now
I look at pictures from last week
I'm there but my mind is a million miles away
I feel out of control and If you
know anything about me you know that
I cannot stand to feel this way
you told me "it will get better
and it will get easier"
I'm so looking forward to that day
but you're not helping at all
I guess I'm an idiot for thinking you can


in short...
I fucking hate this.

here is some terrifying evidence from last night's white trash prom. obviously we had a blast! I am wondering what happened to my wig, though. it's a mystery.

yes, it's Aqua but it's a blast. apparently some lame americans are pissed that MJ was mentioned. it was written before that freak died and fuck anyone with no sense of humour. Cheers.

there was a party a couple of weeks ago where they recreated the all the bars from infamous 500 block of Pine : they actually got stuff that sued to be in the bars and set them all up in a parking lot. Of course, we just hung out at manray. It was pretty cool although it was kinda sponsored through Havanna which is a ridiculouly lame bar here. They played nothing but awful butt rock until midnight when someone most of told the idiot that none of that shit would have ever been played on that block of mostly gay bars. in the pics [ by Doug! } you will find Me, tommy, jeffie and Bree. it was a good time and really fun to revisit those places.

and yes, I do look skinny. I've lost 20 pounds since july 4th. thanks for noticing.

you may be surprised but I absolutely fucking LOVED it! Sure, the story was pretty messed up but the effects and the action was a blast - and somehow, even though they screwed up the accent and the history, Sienna Miller was awesome as the Baroness and easily the best part of the movie. there were a lot of non-sensical liberties { ok, actually there were some GIGANTIC stretches of the imagination } and a lot of the huge stuff was saved for the last few minutes - Obviously there will be a sequel. of course, it got terrible reviews just like the new transformers movie. all it is is an action movie so what do people expect? "I'd like some cathartic revelations and some Carl Jung-ian exposition along with my action films." Ok, don't hold your breathe for that. I Loved it. like LOVED it. really.

a slew of posts coming and going over the last 6 weeks. I would randomly delete them as I was dealing with a great deal of anger and hurt. I will stop doing that now.

carry on.

Explain to me, Andre, how you can hate Lady GaGa yet love Britney Spears? isn't that a lot like getting an abortion and then still loving your dead fetus?

I say yes. except that your aborted fetus is vastly more talented than Britney Spears.

So, I've been pretty sidelined by something shitty. I'll be back when I'm feeling better.

You know I'm a purist. It takes ages for me to get into new music. I'm a music snob with a fine appreciation for cheese and I'm very dismissive. and I can admit these things.

La Roux "Bulletproof" - love the music, she's a lil' bit Robyn-ish.

Frankmusik "Confusion Girl" - I love him. the remixes are better but I like this video. (he did a nice remix for PSB on "love etc")


The Juan Maclean "One Day" - A little bit Human League - I love the music and the dual voices.



Hopefully, Some of these will be on August Satchel. So there.

TanQ is a fan of Cold forced air.

( and yes, I know I should totally post the birthday pics! )

hello. I did indeed survive my awesome birthday. Pics soon. Please excuse me, I'm a tad busy.

pariah with Elvira : it kind of hurts me.

Be Afraid!

01 Kristine W 02 the Cuff block party 03 Mark & Giant Happy Penis 04 Bree will take your dollars 05 the whole drunk gang 06 me, mark, tracie, darcy. woo whoo 07 stumbling down to Purrr. Good times.









*photos 5-7 by Doug

honestly, I thought his music was pretty wretched (except for the song & video of "Thriller") but I actually felt bad for him as he plummeted further and further into freakishness. I think this is what being a celebrity does to some people. I can't imagine living under that kind of scrutiny and judgement every time you fuck up ( as most humans tend to do ). I hope his children aren't messed up for the rest of their lives by that same celebrity bullshit. Rest in peace, MJ.

Rest in peace, Farrah. You were always my favorite Angel : Cheryl Ladd, Shelley Hack and Tanya Roberts were ridiculously pale in comparison. I will watch my VHS copy of "the Burning Bed" in your honor. ( and you know I totally have that doll )
I remmeber my brother had this poster on his bedroom wall in the 70's of her and you could totally see her nipples through her bathing suit and I recall thinking "ooo, she has fabulous hair" so I guess I knew way back then. Cheers to you, Farrah.

I know you are all waiting for me to pass judgement on her, so...

a friend said the other day that he must be the only one that doesn't understand how Lady GaGa got to radio. well, compared to most of the Shite that comprises of American top 40 I must admit she's pretty good. American radio is nothing but (c)rap, Jonas brothers, identical guitar bands and unspeakable shit like Britney and pariah.
So, Based on the excellent remixes I had heard of her first few singles I bought her album. Yack!!! the lyrics are fun and she has a decent voice but most of the production is generic radio flavored hip hop.

So I will stick with the remixes. Dave Aude does a batch of them (and he Rules!) as well as harry "choo choo" romero, moto blanco, robots to mars and a couple of guys called pet shop boys.

I must say that I have seen interviews with her and she seems interesting. She's kinda ridiculous and unusual looking and I dig that stupid people think she's a man. Also, she worships Andy Warhol & grace Jones so I have to give her credit for that.

the best song off of Hard Candy finally gets a video - though it's just clips from the hard candy tour. still fun, though.

Happy Birthday(s) to Mizz Burns ( 19th), UM ( 20th) and Tommy (20th) and here's to many, many more...well, ok not That many but many more.

headed to Tinkham for our first camping trip of 2009 a couple weekends ago with tommy, bree & ollie, darcy and clair. It was nice and low key. we had a great big private spot right next to the river. Not much happened really. we just ate & drank drank a lot and a creepy deliverance kinda guy came over and weirded us out on saturday night. sorry the pics are so dark - there's not a great deal of light out in those woods! ( and yes, that is a barbie wearing a kools pack in the fire.)




















01 Bree is the fire starter
02 dry music is important
03 "where's the on switch?"
04 I think it's nature
05 the end of Mentha

Darcy's birthday was June 1st and It was madness. let's just say it involved a lot of surprises, a party bus, karaoke, roller skating and bowling. and a great deal of booze.

Well, because Internet explorer 8 SUCKS THE ASS OF THE UNIVERSE I can't even label these pics. half of them don't even show up and some are in different posts so I will try to label them at work tomorrow...













01 the birthday girl
02 with Jeffie on the party bus
03 Darcy in the box
04 Jeff in the box
05 the ride home ( see open bottle of Jameson! barf )
06 14 drunk people
07 yes, the hat is a little small
08 my version of "in the box"
09 nice faces - aubs, jeff, me & jeffie
10 ashley & aubrey & shots
11 Jeff, katie, lenny, Darcelle & tracie on the bus