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I'm off to San Fran on tuesday with Jeni, Michael and Heidi for a micro vacation built around the Opening show of Kylie's first US Tour. I can't even wait - just to get on a plane and get the fuck away from here - it's been far too long.
I'm sure there will be pictures and maybe some of Jeni's awkward flip videos.

Enjoy your week.

Friday : ummmm....dug up stuff for rummage sale - took to UM's house. Prepped for Rummage sale.

Saturday : Rummage sale 9-2. Made more money than i expected, so that was nice. Took Ollie to GIJoe then sat at tabel 219 with Bree and Ollie and Tommy and watched some interesting meltdowns. home and in bed by 11 pm.

Sunday : Laundry and Lunch with Steve at Torrero's. Target, Petco ( so heartbreaking! I want to adopt every kitty there. ) and then more fried goodness and beer at a place called "the dog & pony show". Now cleaning my apartment so my cat sitter won't judge me too harshly this week when i am in San Fran.

an Itunes only bonus track to her new greatest hits - I think this one is way better than the 2 new tracks that made the album. Sure, the lyrics are a little trite but the music is bumpin'! we listened to this on my friend's crazy stereo in his Porsche the other night. wow - it made me hate my car stereo.

I played this song to death around the time I met Jeff and have been listening to it a lot lately. It's one of Abba' most underrated songs and probably my 2nd favorite.

You looked so unhappy last night
I vaguely know what's going on
and I hate that you have to deal with this stuff
because I do care and I worry
but our walls have gone up
and we are seeing each other from a distance
and I kind of feel like a stranger to you now
3 months ago I intended to spend the rest of my life with you
a sad and strange turn of events
but something that happens every day around the world
I do hope that someday
you will let me back in
to your world

martini's at tini bigs
the canlis disaster
one of the best conversations I can remember
we talked about right said fred and shakespear's sister
and disagreed on the spelling
best new order song and morrissey
Siouxsie vs robert smith
andy bell and neil tennant
funny that you didn't want to drive
but in a desperate effort to save the evening
you drove to get peach sangria ingrediants
hilarious to be on the phone and see your giant bags of stuff
emerge from your giant cheap car. Lair
I can't thank you for the peach sangria hangover
but I hated seeing you leave

"all I am is a diversion and expect nothing less"
you know everything and vice versa
but at least my Ex didn't call you a "meat curtain"
I use that term a lot, sadly
your dog loves me
and TanQ loves you
our timing sucks and we both know that
our luggage doesn't even match
but I'm happy for what you are calling a "diversion"
because i think i have laughed more in the last 3 days than i have
in the last 2 months
and for that I want to thank you
and Not in a Dido way
and I don't want to disregard anything that has happened before
for either of us
because it is still staggeringly important
however
I think we were both in the right place
at the right time
and within 30 seconds you referenced Portishead
which garnished my absolute attention
like you can't even believe
so lets kill off any expectations
which is so hard for me, I must say
and for once
see what happens
and not loose sleep over anything
because that's what I do


cheers, mate

my favorite human being on Earth, Cassandra petersen aka Elvira, Mistress of the Drak turns 58 today. I hope it's marvelous. I will watch an old episode of "Movie Macabre" tonight to celebrate.

The Sundays "Wild Horses"


Mazzy Star "Fade Into You"


Pink "I Don't Believe You"


we saw Pink the other night at Key Arena. Wow. a big awesome spectacle. easily one of the best shows I have ever seen. So she starts the song above and of course I'm sitting next to Jeff...and well...it totally wreaked me. I had to listen from the hallway with people wondering what my problem was. it's a beautiful song. give it a listen.

it hasn't quite been 2 months
I miss being able to sleep
I miss Not spending all night thinking
stressing and worrying.
replaying the scenes
asking the questions
all those stupid "what if's"
I hate feeling this lost.
like something has been taken from me.
everyday is supposed to be easier
and now most of them are
there are weeks that fly by without any drama
and sure, everyday it hurts a little less
until the next thing that happens
will there always be something that hurts
- even though it's not on purpose
- or even directed at me ?
you could call and warn me
I'm a pretty fair guy
don't drop bombs in places you know I will see them
I find that totally disrespectful
I wonder what I cared about before
last November
I mean - yes - I know
but it seems so ...unimportant
I don't see how those things kept me
bob bob bobbin' along
because they don't matter now
I look at pictures from last week
I'm there but my mind is a million miles away
I feel out of control and If you
know anything about me you know that
I cannot stand to feel this way
you told me "it will get better
and it will get easier"
I'm so looking forward to that day
but you're not helping at all
I guess I'm an idiot for thinking you can


in short...
I fucking hate this.

here is some terrifying evidence from last night's white trash prom. obviously we had a blast! I am wondering what happened to my wig, though. it's a mystery.

yes, it's Aqua but it's a blast. apparently some lame americans are pissed that MJ was mentioned. it was written before that freak died and fuck anyone with no sense of humour. Cheers.