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Like 40 people have called me looking to buy this 1990 red geo metro.

Usually they don't speak English so they can't tell me where my phone number is listed.

And this is why I don't ever answer numbers I don't know.

NICE.

that is all.

why do they have their own dating site?
They shouldn't be allowed to reproduce!

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Jen & Pat wishing the beans would go away.

an uneventful weekend, low key and calm.
Friday night - took a nap, farted around
Saturday - lunch with steve & harry, laundry
sunday - pat's birthday - went to chili's with steve, jen and pat and ate way too much.

Depeche Mode at key arena.

Honestly, I only took the bottom picture.

We actually had great seats with no one in front of us - this pic doesn't do it justice.

they played mostly new stuff but managed a few of my favorites like personal jesus, enjoy the silence, question of time, behind the wheel and never let me down again.

good times.

Madonna's new album came out today. It's very good - dancey Disco. I think I prfer the more message oriented stuff as this is kind of fluffy, but it's good for what it it. Whatever the hype, she does make great music.

Love her or hate her - there's no one like her. I love that everything about her is a spectacle.

Seeing Depeche Mode tomorrow night at Key Arena with Tommy.
No one ever wants to go to shows with me except Tommy - screw them anyway!
I've seen DM several times and they are always fabulous. The Raveonettes are opening but they do nothing for me.

I often find myself
thinking about
where I am and how I got here
the decisions I have made
and opportunities
missed or
Not taken
the many "what if"s and "If Only"s
not really regrets
but I wonder
and the wondering makes my brain race
and I stress
and I'm sad
and I'm depressed
and lonely
and yes, there's no going back
I should
accept reality
grow up, deal with it
make the best of what I have
or
grow up
aspire to be more
watch out for those speed bumps
or
live life to it's fullest
make every day and every moment count
stop worrying about bills
and jobs
and money
if only
I could find a way
to
do that

Today was my best friend's Birthday. Steve and I go to La Coccina every sunday so today was no different. We were joined by a small group of friends and it was nice. we all had to wear sombrero's. Hit several bars and ate and drank too much. what else is there to do on a cruddy sunday afternoon? Consuelo was supossed to show up but she snubbed and therefore she is disenherited.
01. Brian listens to Harry explain the wonders of craig's list.
02. Me and steve in the pink.
03. Alma breaks out the Sombrero's.
04. Birthday boy in his Sassy gold trimmed sombrero.

01 - u cannot see that grid in the real world
02 - my tie is red, not my face

I haven't slept fer shit all week.
I went to the doctor thursday am.
The Doc says my thyroid is going cookoo again.

I am so fucking tired.
Plus another 65 hr week,

I need a dirt nap.

I'd like to sleep all weekend.
But I'm sure UM and "Dance Party USA" will not allow that.

not bad for a little phone camera? This is BEAR - steve & Pat's fatso.

After the last ROUGH few weeks at work.....No details necessary...I got home around 7:15. Really needed a target, but instead popped in UNDEAD. A wacky haustralian horror comedy with a touch of sci-fi thrown in.

because sometimes I just need 90 minutes of mindless brain splattering zombies.

I'm in a much better mood now, though I still need a target.

that is all.

Someone killed our pumpkins - pushed them off our porch to their untimely doom.

I think it was Um in a drunken stupor or perhaps the lesbians upstairs? I noticed their's weren't smooshed.

Steve's somehow survived with just a head wound.

1. Glamazonia - our 8 foot drag queen hostess
2. me and a sister of perpetual indulgance

I went to gay bingo tonight with steve and doug-e and friends of doug-e.

it was in this huge like navy building on lake union not far from my home.

I was kinda fun and festive but, for various reasons some would consider bitchy, I felt very uncomfortable and didn't want to be there. After 3 hours, I was extremely irritated and when everyone decided to go to manray afterwards - I declined.

So now I'm sitting at home, pissed off, at 10:53 on a saturday night.

i have a problem with hot confined places packed with people. just not fun to me. period. sorry.
I also just fukkin' HATE drunk people when I am sober. Especially obnoxious people. Even more Especially obnoxious gays and lesbians.

and that makes me a bitch.

and I say OH WELL.

I took these pictures on my phone but am not sure how to get them to be bigger. still working on this new phone thing.

my sister's ex husband's neice was beaten to death by her boyfriend thursday night.

She was 25.

I knew her pretty well as a little girl and I'm a little wreaked and flipped out about this.

.................and that is all.

I saw this commercial on cnn last night. HYSTERICAL!

"the cartoon Smurfs and their village are seen being bombed by airplanes. The recent advertising campaign by Unicef, both in print and on television, is intended to teach schoolchildren about the horrors of war. The title in French at left bottom reads 'Don't let war deystroy the world of children'"

01. work is killing me
02. frequent headaches are killing me
03. return to car payment land is also killing me
04. 14 hrs days are killing me
05. Stupid Republicans are killing me
06. this 14 sneezes in a row cold is killing me
07. did i mention work?

whine whine whine

when something worth cheering about happens I'll be sure to post it here.

it's been a rather brutal week.
the stress of getting 80 hrs of work done in a 40 hr work week is making my hair turn gray and fall out.

oh...it already was?

no plans for the weekend, really. Hopefully just sleeping in.

malling tonight. yad yada

cut my hair off, too.


and that is all.

pic 1. Kylie - a few years ago
pic 2. Dannii on tv yesterday
pic 3. dannii on tv yesterday
pic 4. dannii in 1992


After Kylie cancelled her tour, we wondered why her sister Dannii couldn't just fill in. I love Dan. She's a trashier, less talented verison of Kylie but not really all that different from her sister.

As you can see, it certainly looks like she has had a truckload of plastic surgery over the years ( to look more like kylie?) - all the more startling in the middle 2 pictures taken like Yesterday.

as Kylie undergoes cancer treatment, I hope Dannii isn't plotting to kill her off and then pass herself off as her much more successful sister. I've been saying this since day one of the cancer announcement.

And that is all.

I just heard someone say "Isn't it funny how everything works itself out?"

and to that I say "Isn't it HYSTERICAL how everytime I see a light at the end of the tunnel - some huge hand comes down from the heavens and snuffs it out?"

I'm wondering what babies I murdered in a former life to be deserving such a bad hand.

The Gods, whomever they may be, must really have a beef with me.

Listen to me whine.

whine whine WHINE.



That.....is All.

It seems to me that as we grow older - our "comfort zones" Shrink around us.

In my old age I am nearly totally uncomfortable doing anything unusual or different. This has been bothering me the last few days.

( see what happens when i don't have a cellphone? My brain starts to function )

tonight I was sitting here feeling restless and quite bored out of my mind and decided to get up and go somewhere, so I walked my fat ass down to the water and looked at all the cool houses and sat for a bit with the same ducks we fed last sunday.

it was refreshingly chilly and there was a great dusk view of lake union and I could smell someone grilling steak on one of the houseboats.

it's funny how the little things like a beautiful view and a delicious smell will stick in your mind so briefly. Tomorrow I won't remember either of them.

I'm rambling.
I really don't have anything to say.

I saw HELLBENT a couple of weeks ago and have been mulling over my opinion on it.
It's billed as "the First gay Horror Flick" and for the most part I Loved it.

Anyone that knows me knows that I love horror movies, so a gay horror movie is right up my alley. For a gay movie, this one had no "gay apology" - which I found very refreshing. There was no homophobia or gay bashing to deal with, although the killer himself may be the ultimate homophobic gay basher? That would be my one gripe - you never get any reasoning or motive for the killings - ok, the four main characters moon the killer in the woods - but since when is mooning someone reason enough to get murdered?

the main characters are a group of four friends and you get some decent character build up and that made it kind of sad for me to see them getting stalked and offed in some pretty gruesome scenes.

Great line from Toby ( the drag queen ) after he barfs in a garbage can: "I'm Ok - I didn't need the calories anyway".

It's in limited release now and will probably be on dvd shortly. I'll be buying it.

it's 10:57
i'm in my office eating a maple scone and drinkign a diet coke
i'm not listening to anything

i've "temporarily" absorbed another person's job as we struggle to rehire for that position.

i'm pleased that it's now falla nd the leaves are turnign and the weather is more bearable. BEAR!

my cellphone is broken. the piece that my charger plugs into has fallen into the phone - so i can't charge it. I'm sure it will be an arm and a leg to fix it or get a new phone. my contract is up in july so I don't want to re-sign with them - I hate sprint.

i'd like to have a camera phone. even my mom ahs a camera phone!

I've had the last few weekends off and it's been strange. I'm not used to having 2 days off in a row. we're talkign over 4 years of not having more than one day off a week.

Last weekend was fun but spent too much time drinking...and we've discussed drinking habits and PROBLEMS before here. My friend steve has a new boy and I spent some quality time with them shopping, hanging out, etc. Even fed some crazy ducks on sunday night.

was given an ultimatum by my landlord and after careful consideration - we are re-signing the lease. greta palce, cheap rent, very easy to deal with neighbours and landlord. don't have 2k to find a new place right now, roommate is gainfully employed, HATE HATE HATE moving and i am totally picky about where I live. so, i'm staying put for now. might do a minor remodel or paint job to liven things up.

that is all.

I haven't been blogging
because I don't have anything to say

Or because anything I DO have to say
involves a person, a situation or something else
that would cause problems and/or strife and Drama

Let me just say
that I am not happy
with certain persons, places or things

and I am planning
and/or endeavoring
to alter such relationships and/or situations

thank you

I just wrote out checks for over $1000 in bills.
DoO you know how that makes me feel?
It makes me feel poor!

Seriously.

just now, I couldn't decide if the lingering oder in the elevator was perfume or farts.

Maybe it was a combination of the two ?

Rolled out of bed around 10. Steve came over and we went to La Coccina for lunch. Then walked around broadway. I bought a couple of old grace jones cds for 2.50 each and steve bought an old Smiths cd. SO many freaks and trash on broadway as usual.

this one Freak gets up as we are walking by and says "I'm gonna get a drink and you fuck yourself in the ass" to his friend. Steve and I go over to Strabucks and this same freak comes in and turns to grab steve's arm or something and steve says "hey, don't touch me" and the Freak says "How about if I hack your head off" at which point steve says something about police and the little starbucks workers are all over this Freak in a second. It was all very embarassing.

went back home and watched a couple episodes of OZ.
and listened to the smiths. Then steve's friend Jenny called and we drove over to Hellevue and met her at rockbottom for cocktails and darts.

Showed steve my office and then went over and fed consuello's grays. they were happy to see me but terrified of steve.

then drove to two more starbucks looking for the "leopard Bearista Bear". GAY much? why not? Found it at the Madison park one. I wanna live in madison Park again!

that is all.

01. I call all animals CUTIE
02. I over emphasize words with CAPITAL letters too often
03. I like to pretend I'm a huge Elitist snob, but I'm really a big softie
04. I can't stand confrontations
05. I can't stand people who don't answer their fucking cell phones
06. I hate how my best friend never answers his although he flips out if I don't
07. I honestly believe everyone is stupid until they prove otherwise
08. Someone once told me I look like a "Cartoon"
09. I believe people are always staring at me because I look like a Cartoon
10. I am totally vain but have a very low self opinion at the same time
11. Every morning I tell myself How fat & gross I am
12. I think about winning an insane amount of money ALL THE TIME
13. I spend too much time doing random thing for other people
14. I feel terrible that I live so far away from my parents
15. I rarely buy anything not on sale or at least used
16. At the same time I don't care about saving a few pennies here and there
17. I know an exorbitant amount of cooking info but rarely do so
18. I hate having to rely on anyone for anything
19. Asking for favors gives me hives
20. When I have nothing looming on the horizon I feel like I have nothing to live for
21. I don't understand how most people make it thru the day
22. I am a big kid and wouldn't want to be any other way
23. I have a severe internet addiction
24. I like silence even more than I love music
25. I am somewhat obsessed with collecting things I lost as a child
26. I am even more obsessed with collecting things my parents wouldn't buy me as a child
27. I'm down to a very small list of things left to acquire
28. I will not share that list with you
29. I will do anything for my friends which unfortunately includes letting them walk all over me
30. I am terrible with names and details
31. However, I remember prices easily
32. I spend a great deal of time deciding on how to NOT be bored
33. I am very anal about my freetime
34. I am even more anal about my "things"
35. Mostly because I've had so many roommates who liked to borrow my things
36. I really enjoy buying things for family and friends
37. Often I will find something and try to think of someone to give it to
38. My favorite holiday is Halloween because there's very little pressure
39. My least favorite holiday is Christmas because people are evil and stressed out
40. I hate feeling helpless
41. The last 2 weeks of me without a car was sheer hell for me
42. sitting in traffic makes my blood boil
43. sitting and waiting for phone calls or people to show up drives me crazy
44. I talk to my parents now more than I did when I lived with them
45. I hate messy people but cannot keep my room tidy to save my life
46. I worry about my cat running away while I am at work
47. My roommate openly wishes she was dead - so I have good reason to worry
48. I feel Lost Several times a day, Randomly
49. I wish I had someone but I sabotage every relationship before they start
50. I think I live my life Vicariously thru my friends

you'd think I'd have something to say:

1. I am enjoying the new car immensely.
2. Taking consuelo to the airport shortly, looking after her grays while she is away.
3. Malling 3 of the next 4 days/nights, but looking forward to the weekend.
4. TanQ is throwing up a lot. Must be the food.
5. Mother Nature is a terrorist, clearly.

After a ROTTEN experience with Saturn and a somehow worse time with Jeep...i drove my barely functioning "Betty" down to Renton to the Mazda dealership- where they were very nice people and not giant assholes and I expected to buy something "used but liveable" but walked away with a brand new 2005 Mazda 6 and a smaller payment than I was expecting on something used. Sunroof, sweet 6 cd stereo, lots of ooopf. Zoom Zoom, indeed.

here's my apartment and all my shit.
Hopefully, I will have some sort of good car news related post tomorrow.

I had a lovely weekend doing NOTHING.

How anyone lives without a car is beyond me. I can't stand having to ask for favours or counting on other people. It's a real issue for me. CooKoo.

Didn't get to see RuPaul in Portland, obviously. I would have gone on my own if I could.

And we go on...but I'm not bitter.

That is all.

The Last few weeks I have been all about the B-52's.

01. Still Undecided on the car scene.

02. Working a lovely 7:30am to 9:30 pm double shift today. and 9am to 4pm tomorrow, too.

03. Thanks again and again to Consuelo for playing Taxi.

04. My sunburnt forehead is peeling and it looks like I have giant chunks of dandruff or LICE in my hair. SWEET!

05. Should I go see Gwen with Tommy in a few months? I'm weary of the "Tim Concert Curse!" Oh, what the fuck, right?

Please Go HERE to read Neil's hilarious "Madonna and the Killer Devil Horse" story.